Before I let you go

Before I let you go, 

I need you to know, that you were everything to me at one point in time. In those special moments shared between you and I, we were soulmates; two souls connected, our paths converged, our desires for the future, one— 

together, forever. 

Before I let you go, I hope you know how much I’ve wanted and tried to make things work; make things the way we always said they would be. 

But now I know, you can’t force compatibility. I won’t be unhappy with you anymore. I won’t allow it. 

I need to walk away from the person you've become because I've already said goodbye to the one I fell in love with. 

I always saw the best in him, all of the parts that no one else could see. I always saw the beautiful things that I wanted him to be.

But the truth is, he doesn't know what love means and the only thing he does know is how to hurt me.

And I hope they ask you about me, and I hope you tell them you fucked up, because

the truth hurts— and even he knows my love was never something he deserved. 

I deserve—, everyone deserves to love who they are. 

And now, I can finally say that it's over. And even though it hurts a bit, I can't help but feel relief— 

no more stress, 

no more overthinking every night, 

no more questioning myself,

no more worrying, no more fights, and dumb arguments, and—

no more tears. 

My life has been so much more peaceful after no contact. I'm so proud to say that I've lost my attachment to someone who wasn't good for me. The delusion wore off and I'm finally happy. I stopped breaking my own heart trying to make a relationship work that clearly wasn't meant to work. 

You did what you did. I felt what I felt. 

I lost you but I found me.